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I’ve found that anytime I’ve been heckled or called something (today it was “fag” from a passing car, which… seriously, that’s all you could think up? Hell, I’d be more upset if you got my name wrong.) it has always been cases of two guys in a car. And they’re always white. The age range isn’t a factor here, because face it, most of us are still adolescents in our minds at one point in time or another. But seriously. And I’ve mentioned this before.  It’s always white guys who talk the most shit, and they always do it from the safety of a vehicle.

Because they’re scared, I would presume. They’re scared that they’re about to be called out on their shit. I’ve been given nothing but compliments from everyone other type of person imaginable, but it’s always white guys that try and say things to belittle me. 

Maybe it’s because I’m a white guy myself, and I’ve broken some rule somewhere. Maybe it’s because I’ve done something they couldn’t bring themselves to do, so I must be different.
Maybe it’s because they’re jealous. Or afraid. Or both. Could be both. 

But like I said, there’s always more than one guy in the vehicle, so apparently douchebag-ness needs company in order to be amplified.

I think I might turn this into a research opportunity. A social experiment. But I’ll have to go back and write down every event in greater detail. But it could be very enlightening.

..This has been a /rant.

Dammit.

A little moth just landed on my screen.

I tried to shoo him away with my cursor.

Then I realized what I was doing.

I feel restless as shit. Like, climbing the walls restless. I only had a banana and a cup of tea… Eh.

Another night without much progress. Managed to get the Horn, and take it back, and now I’m on my way to meet Delphine’s contact to get me into the Thalmor Embassy.

IF I could manage to not get sidetracked by every-fucking-thing.

Seriously. It’s like I’m destined to kill dragons or something.

All right, Skyrim. Round 2. I’ve got an hour or so, and I’m gonna make something awesome happen.

I just spent 20 minutes writing things and erasing them. I can’t really explain why.

Seriously, I had paragraphs and paragraphs, and then I erased them. Then I started writing something totally different altogether. Erased that, too. Gonna try and avoid the delete key for a bit. Actually try and get a thought across.

I keep wanting to interject in these serious conversations and arguments going on all over Tumblr and Facebook. Not because I feel one way or another; I just want to get everyone to stop arguing for a little while. It seems like the arguments are getting worse, and aren’t getting anywhere all at the same time. Everyone is finding flaws and faults in everything they see, and all they want to do is point the finger and make someone else feel like shit. When did that become okay? I don’t know about everyone else, but I’ve got enough on my plate that I really don’t need to feel like shit on top of all the shit I already feel like.

We’re all on attack mode, and we all feel like we’re being attacked all the time. I can’t help it that there are bad people out there; that there are people who get off on making the rest of the world worse off. But take a minute to look at the people around you and recognize that not everyone in the world wants you to be less of a person. I don’t want that at all. 

I don’t mean to sound like I’m trying to preach Love and Peace for all. I just…

I want things to be better for each of you. Because everyone deserves it. 

Counting down the days. Really, really need to get this stuff over with. 

Also, can someone send me a Red Bull or something? I’m about to snooze all over the place.

Also, check out this shit. It’s faded, but only on top. The sides are still just as blue/green as before, but the top is fading to gray/purple.

wth, yo.

Sleepy Monday in class. Last week of this class, though. Final on Thursday. 

This is my Help Desk face.